headache

was feeling unwell today, had a bad headache. work till 1am, woke up at 5am for school. had lecture till 3pm. shagged out. soon i'm gonna collapse.

Had badminton wf the og pple at kovan ytd. Results: blister on my fingers. oh man dat hurts :( ended at 4 plus, and had to rush for work. met her for work. but we exchanged few words. i did ask her regarding our problem, yet her ans is dun know. That is the final straw. Anyway won't go into details. I guess i shldn't delay any further too. Guess she's better off without me, she's seem happier talking to pple and more cheerful than the past.

Realise my sch work is piling up, guess i need to mug mug mug.. And find work so that i can get my hands on my fav adidas bag!
Already had my ipod touch, i'm addicted to it :)
People! stop eyeing on my gadgets, although i know its addictive =)

Urgent: Work

Think it's been a while since i update my blog.

Been a tiring week so far. And my cash reserve is depleting fast. i need a job, anyone has?

Recovering from a breakup is never easy, their advices are similar: to look for someone new, my answer is a no. Just wanna focus on my things now. i've learnt so much through this torrid period, i'm stronger now. Though some memories still lingers on.

Went kbox on Sat at chinatown, was emo-ing for sometime before starting my singing engine. Yay, my singing's improving :) got praised for that. sang till 7 before heading for soccer.
Fri we went for malcolm's singing competition, had to sit with his fan club. oh man its was a darn long journey, had supper at tpy macs before heading home.

Went to temple wf the rest, hope to end my bad patch. Hope that things will only get better soon.

Didn't have mch sleep for the past few days. No job, no love, no money. Is there someone who's gonna save me?

Love this oldie: Pretty Boy by M2M

-Life is a rollercoaster-

Depression

I'm in a state of depression, things are not going well.
Received a call telling me that my work on thur and fri is cancelled. reason: i can't work for the whole week.
the new job which i went for training today wasnt successful, she managed to get the job.
i need a rest, seriously. it's been a testing time for me the last 3 wks, i'm totally down and out now.
Is anyone out there who can pull me out?

i'm so depressed now, god pls help me.

Went for lasertag orientation this afternoon, was super shagged. although didnt make it for the job, but had some fun with those guns. And i won the battle, the finals. which was to eradicate the enemies till the last one standing.

i thought it through. anyway one day i still has to get over it, why must i be so depressed, making myself so miserable. anyway had not been the concerns of all my friends, i think i had depression long ago :(

something happen at macs today! haha

Break Up

Time to pick myself up from the dumps, haven't been myself for the past period. Having to face pressure at so many fronts, my work, relationship, school etcs.

I'm crumbling soon.

Many times i ask her the qn, the ans was 'not sure'. But yesterday, its all over when she said she doesn't want to carry on anymore. It hurts to hear this, cause i had put in 100% effort into this rs. Many a times, people are telling me to give up on this rs, cause it's been dragging for far too long, i chose not to give up. But her words yesterday broke my heart.

physical and emotional turmoil
i had given my all, only hope for u to appreciate.
My future is bleak, i'm lost. there's nothing left for me to cling on.

Long-lost feeling

Went to sch at 12pm, cldn't wake up for my maths lecture.. slept at 3am the previous night. my mind filled with doubts. i felt so screwed up, never in my my life i felt so indecisive and lost. met jason martin on the bus, was discussing abt rs stuff, gave me lots of advices.

went for econs lecture, unable to concentrate. Guess everyone will be thinking why the 'darren' of the past has become so wishy-washy. was using my psp throughout the lect, bored =(

after classes, we headed to PS for movie. the usual grp went to get the tix for us, while gh followed me to get the chocs for her. proceeded to her school. before reaching. we were drenched, was raining qte badly outside. passed the chocs, exchanged afew words before i left. Just hope she wld appreciate wad i did for her. Anyway, thanks gh! for accompanying me there =)

Movie! we were darn late. Watched 'Eagle Eye'. wasn't that bad. action-packed. worth the 6 bucks. after the movie, we went on our separate ways. Initially wanted to visit her, but was rejected. its okay =(

At 7, went for jo's bday at wanyi's workplace. was supposed to fine-dining, but ended up like a kopitiam for us.Van throwing her food around; sherm having his chup cai rice. And using wrong utensils. That explains why we are singaporeans.


b'day girl, jo


funny faces


Before dinner, Jo was talking abt my rs:

Jo: So how long has u both been on cold war?
Me: almost 2wks already =(
Jo: cold war also shouldn't take so long, it's not gd for the rs. if not,the feeling will be weird in future.

I'm trying very hard, but some are telling me to move on. I want, but i still have feelings for her.

Went off at almost 11, headed home. My heart's heavy, someone pls help me lighten it =(

Why do we fall in love?

Why do we fall in love? Is it important to have someone to complete your life? Falling in love is one of the most beautiful thing that could happen in someone. The late night talking on the phone. Watch movies. Watching the sunset together. Holding hands. Saying "I love you". Missing each other all the time. Text message that person that you miss him or her so so much. You feel so happy when both of you are together. By the end of the day, after long day, just wanna hug that special one and want him or her to say that things will be alright and he or she will be there to protect you all the time. Wish that the special one will be there forever. By the look of their faces, know that you can depend on him or her. You feel like your on top of the world when he or she kisses you on the cheek. You feel so happy when he or she is around you. When you feel sad, he or she will wipe your tears. Wish that nothing will come through between the two of you. The promises that both of you made for each other, keep that promise forever because if you don't, it will just ruined everything.

*Falling off the valley of love*

Late Night-out

Just back home, never felt so tired before. today went shopping at town with sherm, gh and cinhui. cinhui, as usual was late, but she was one and a half hr late!! angry! got myself two polo tees@ 30 bucks. Qte a bargain :)

Went ard town looking for my studs and shorts, wasn't able to find any of my liking. Then finally headed to Subway for lunch. didnt have much appetite for the last few days, so didnt eat at all. Was so distracted today that i got a scolding again, and almost had my phone confiscated!

Attend seng's birthday at aranda country club, fetched by yy at buangkok mrt. didnt know the mrt was already opened. were finding our way there, and emo-ing abt rs stuff.
It seems that now, everyone has known abt my rs problems, and giving me endless advice. Was on the phone wf afew of them, but all accounts to the same pt.

-Love affairs are so complicated =(


seng's 21st birthday

had buffet and games of mahjong, before ended the day wf the cutting cake session. we headed to the beach to chill, before we knew it, it's almost 1am. Cf suggested having supper, so we went to buangkok kopitiam to have dim sum! it took us a couple of mins to fill the table wf dim sums.



Ended at 3am, and jere fetched us home. What a tiring day! Going to bed now :)

Knowing that she's living a better life now, i'm contented. i'll be searching for mine now :)

Emo-ing King

Met chu at interchange today, as usual he was late. waited almost half an hour.
wasn't able to concentrate for the whole 3hrs of maths lect, was being told off by gh and the rest.

after sch went to town with regi, suqi, chu and sherm for lunch, gh left us for work. Almost dozed off due to the super long journey. Then we were like discussing why each of us are emo-ing.. Terrible day. Went far east to have my fav ice honey lemon, and headed for the chix noodles stall upstairs. And then did alittle of window shopping. Wasnt exactly looking for anything. And chu ps us halfway for his E-girl. Then we just shopped aimlessly ard far east.

Wasnt myself the whole of today, anyway just hope this feelings can go away soon =(

Yay! i got another ear pierced! but i will keep it at 3, will be closing one of the ear holes.

Night was at gardens wf sherm, went to visit gh. Guess he looked shagged, judging from his face. Was having an emo session wf sherm. anyway, felt much better now =)

Sigh! My hand's still aching over the badminton session, need more vigorous workouts in the future. my muscles are flabbing.

-moving on with life